The Hills Roll On

It still hurts, to walk away from something so good, so very much in line with our hearts passion. Yet we trust that we are here in Ottawa for His purposes, not our own. God is opening doors we never would’ve sought ourselves; so we’re totally walking by faith, financially starting over, and trusting God is going to get some massive glory from this situation. Honestly, it seems like a season of heavy pruning and refining. The pressure is on and the outside circumstances don’t make sense (to us)…but there is something deeper that whispers ‘this is all happening for a reason, don’t give up now.’ So I say “bring it on!”. Pruning and refining HAVE to happen — and by definition they are uncomfortable, ugly, and don’t seem to make sense…until later. We miss the community of friends, comrades, and fellow ministers of the gospel. I try not to think about it too much, else pity come knocking at the door of my heart. And brings friends like despair, procrastination, hopelessness and death of vision. Yuk. Don’t need those! So each day I declare (and Eden even prays it now as part of her rote breakfast prayer) “Thank you God for a new day!. His mercies are new, I will rejoice and be glad, I will count my blessings and name them by name. I will enjoy the autumn while I still can, and I will savor the sweetness of my children’s infancy.

The boys are crawling, sitting, cutting teeth and well into solids now. Blows my mind how fast they develop in this first year.

Eden is wonderful; her articulation and thought processes amaze me. She will dress as a princess this year for a little jaunt around the block on Wednesday; I will escort her as a queen:) Red dress, jeweled crown and all! It’s a sweet time of life; and soon we will have a nest of our own, which I will truly, truly appreciate. When you’ve gone without you appreciate it when you have it again. Like health returning after a bout of illness, or a friendship re-kindled. I am learning lessons that I suppose, in God’s infinite wisdom and grace, I would only truly learn in a time of want. Humility and trust grow in the soil of faith; where I can only see with eyes of faith that which cannot be seen. A tenacity is being strengthened in me in the midst of adverse winds; and though I don’t like the discomfort of my present situation, I adore and trust the One who is letting me mature in love and grace and truth in the midst of it.

And it’ll make SUCH a great story when it comes full circle!!!