Impetus
What a change from a year ago. You make your plans, you think you have a good idea of what’s coming in the near future, but so very much in this life is completely beyond our control.
People ask us the inevitable questions about our near future. I hesitate now to give a hasty answer; because honestly, we don’t know. We’ve got ideas, we’ve got dreams, but “solid plans” are a luxury we haven’t laid hold of just yet. Our visas expire August 31, 2007. It’s now 2007, so that gives some impetus to our need to plan. But we know there are a few steps to take first; like letting these boys be born. Walking through those first 3 months of intense selfless nurture. Coming through to the other side of that (sometime early summer) will be a landmark, one I look forward to! Sleep will stretch longer, head control will be gained, smiles will emerge from our two wonderful sons. We will know then better than we know now, what that next step will be.
I can do this now. I couldn’t do it nearly as fearlessly 5 years ago. It’s amazing what five years of walking by faith (not by sight!) can do to a heart that is willing to do into the deeper regions of God’s heart. Ask me where I am, I don’t know. There is no map for this terrain…but I have something for the journey that you can’t buy with silver or gold: peace. Peace that surpasses understanding. Peace that guards my mind and heart from tidal waves of fear. I can walk in the fog of unknowing assuredly, one step at a time, because I never walk alone. The Lord is my Shepherd, I lack nothing. — mmmm…Psalm 23. Can’t get enough of the good stuff.